What a ride this year has been. I can’t remember any
year recently that has taken me on more of roller coaster ride than this one
has. I hope to write about this fantastic year soon.
At the moment however, I need to immediately settle
down since Christmas Eve is tomorrow and I have had to eat a lot of crow this
week already.
I’ve never seen my temper flare up as it has the past
couple of weeks and I am not saying this because it was a good thing either. Up
and down, sometimes within a few minutes. Not a pretty sight, I assure you.
Yes, another $18 postage more than the $46 I had
already put on the envelopes on the Christmas/New Year’s cards I FINALLY took
to the post office, later than ever, may have been a good reason to get angry.
Yes, it was a disgusting waste of money! HOWEVER, it’s
not much of an excuse in relation to starving people who couldn’t consider
wasting this kind of money under any circumstances.
Were this an isolated incident I could cut myself some
slack, but I am ashamed to say that I have been at best hot and cold for over a
week now. I can’t justify it, and know actually I shouldn’t even try.
While I will not suddenly turn back to my regular volume
and what generally passes for normal for me, at least I might stop losing my
temper every time I stub my toe, get the wrong sized coffee and other stupid
things that will not change the world dramatically.
Meanwhile, awareness can get me to slow down and settle
down and give myself, and those around me, a break. Either that or I should go
soak my head until I am fit to be among other people again. Sometimes that’s
the best advice we can give ourselves until we settle down.
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