LET IT GO

The movie Frozen had a most beautiful song in it. It is called “Let It Go”. Even now, years later, it is one of the better songs ever written.

It was written by Demi Lovato in 2013 and recorded by Idina Menzel in 2014 for the Disney movie Frozen. After it won the Oscar for Best Song, it was recorded by many countries, and regions of countries, i.e. Spanish, Catalan and Basque for Spain; English & Quebecois for Canada, and many other variations in a compilation.

Whatever language or dialect, it resonated with something visceral in all of us. I think what it was we responded to was that we can’t stay stagnant, immersed in some sad part of our lives. We need to free ourselves, literally and figuratively, from whatever it is we have been holding onto…and which we are allowing to hold us back.

I sit here, amid complete disarray, surrounded by boxes and furniture and a decimated home as I prepare to move tomorrow morning. Finally, around a month ago, I said yes to change. I have to tell you, although I don’t know why, somewhere inside of me, nervous as I was at my rashness, I knew I have already been changing inside.

While I am a bit nervous at leaving so many things that have made up my life for the past 6+ years, I know this decision, whether for only a year or however long, is somehow the right thing to do.

How can I be sure? Well, I can’t, except to know that I will finally sort out a lot of old memorabilia and things that were boxed and re boxed, because I am finally ready to do this.

I also know that I will soon be on vacation again abroad as I have organized and paid for another trip. However, this time, I also recognize that when it is time for me to change again, I should be able to do so without the fear I had before.

This time for some reason I understand that any change I make will be neither permanent or irrevocable. In fact, because I am making this change, I am less nervous about making another one if I have to.

I am wondering why it took me so long to realize that if I make a decision, even one this big, I can, maybe even more easily, make another one if I need to. Colour me surprised. Colour me looking forward, again…finally.